I’ve been, by and large, fantastically calm and centered this week. It’s starting to freak my co-workers out, because they expect me to be stressed, and I’m in this calm Zen place. And I think one of the reasons it’s been so great is that I can literally feel this WALL OF AWESOME at my back. It’s like I feel thousands of your little hands pushing me forward with your good wishes and your cheer, so I know I don’t need to worry too much, because you guys are so *on it* for me. I know you guys will be cheering for us on Sunday, but I can literally feel you carrying us over the finish line this week. I’ll have more thoughtful reflective things to say later this week, once I’m off work and have time to breathe, but for now I wanted to say:
Long time reader Lauren
is getting married next weekend, just like we are, and sent me this email:In 1.5 hours, we'll be one week out. I thought you'd enjoy this picture- tonight I made what is (I hope) the last Mexican paper flower I will ever make in my life. But they're pretty! Hope you are calm, centered, and happy- I'm finding it hard to stay calm because I am SUPER EXCITED for everyone to get here. Enjoy this last week!
And the picture she sent encapsulates exactly how I feel right now: Continue reading One Week Out: Wedding Zen
I have so much still to tell you guys...
About drinking white wine while a girlfriend and we practiced my (in the end
hair and makeup.
About marriage counseling and how everyone should do it.
About how I now have a genuine silver sixpence tucked into my wedding shoes which makes them feel brand new, even though they are not
But some of these stories are going to have to wait till after the wedding. I'm running a fever (literally) from trying to do too much, and we have a million small tasks to be done between now and the wedding. Oh, yes. And I want to be able to keep my sanity and enjoy all this.
So, I'll be checking in here now and then (because I can't help myself anyway), but I have to take the pressure off myself to post regularly over the next two weeks. I have faith that you guys will watch my back while I do this. (And yessss... I'll have posts scheduled for you while I'm off on my honeymoon. HONEYMOON! Just the word gets me excited!) Continue reading Dear Team Practical
Somewhere around the two and a half week mark, a eerie total calm settled over me. Last week I looked around and realized I had a large event to throw in just over two weeks... and my brain flipped a switch. I went from bride-mind to producer mind. I've mentioned before that after knowing each other for nine years ) what got David and I together was being co-producers of a small theatre company we started in New York. Producing is something that comes easily to me, something I understand.
So the switch flipped, and I calmly went back to my spreadsheets. I had chats with our wedding stage manager (you can call her captain of the bridal brigade, but we all know that a brilliant stage manager is the lynch pin of a smooth production). I wrote prop lists. Suddenly I knew what I was doing again. CALM.
This weekend, we ran all around the Bay Area (because we are pretty sure that by next weekend we will not give a f*ck about wedding details
anymore). We had a meeting with our caterer to go over logistics. I walked in, flipped open my notebook to my three page spreadsheet with a detailed color coded timeline for the weekend. Continue reading Two Weeks Out and I’m Feeling Calm
You guys. We're two weeks out. I'm working nonstop (hellloooo 18 hour days, lovely to meet you) and we're running around trying to finish up all the last wedding chores. Some of them are silly little things, and some of them are bigger. Like, you know, like getting my dress altered, and um, figuring out the last details of my outfit.* Right.
BUT! People keep saying things to us like, "I'll see you in two weeks, but I won't SEE you." or "You'll be too stressed to talk, but I'm excited to be there." or "I'll see you from afar, but you won't have a minute to talk," or, or, or.... and all I can think is if we don't get to hang out with people over the weekend of our wedding, if we don't have chats, if we don't have gossipy drinks, if we don't have teary hugs, and excited arm waving conversations, if we don't really SEE people, then... this is one over-priced party.
So, sanity check, my wedding graduates. I suspect that, if you put your mind to it, you will actually see people at your wedding, and actually enjoy time with them. It's like remembering your wedding
... if you want to, you will. Continue reading Being There, And Seeing
(I wrote this post, and then I was afraid I shouldn't post it, because it was too boring. But then I thought, oh h*ll. Why don't we talk about what's really important, amidst all the posts about dresses and flowers and shiny rings. Let's talk about it, even if it's not flashy and just true.)
So the interesting thing about having some downtime before the wedding, is it's given me space to really step back from the details of this party we're planning and look at the big picture. Here is what I've seen: All this wedding stuff? This stuff I've been thinking about and planning? It's just stuff. It's really cool stuff mostly - dresses and hand made ties and micro-brewed beer, but it's not the point, and soon it will be gone, or tucked away. What matters is both more ethereal and more solid all at once.Our service.
We've been working on it for months and months, but the last few weeks I've felt like I've lived inside it. It will be over in thirty-ish minutes, but it will be in our hearts for the rest of our lives. I haven't written too much about it, because there are some things that are just too personal to write about publicly, but this is where the soul of the wedding lives. This is why we are doing this crazy public act. Continue reading What Really Matters