L’Shana Tova, and Nine

Hello All,

Suddenly the light is fading, and we are rushing towards the close of the Jewish year, and the opening of the gates. The Days of Awe are always a powerful time – raw, stripped down, peaceful, and hard, all at once. You’re confronting what you did wrong over the last year, what you did right, and holding yourself accountable. But this year The Days of Awe and 9/11 coincide, on a year when my memories are hitting me pretty hard. People mentioned on the post earlier today that loss ebbs and flows, sometimes it’s a dull ache, sometimes it’s as near to you as the day it happened. And for me, at 21, living through terror, and then living next to death, was a kind of a loss. A moment where your life is ripped in two and is never the same again. And this year the loss is close again. On the rare days when I talk about what happened that day, David sometimes asks me if it gets better over time. And I say that over time you think about it less. But the moments when it catches you off gard: a news story on the radio, an image, the fall light on a clear blue day, on those moments it’s as close as the day you woke to a building shaking roar, and sirens. I doubt that ever goes away.

So. The gates are opening, and we’re marking nine years. Nine years since the horror and the terror and the compassion. Nine years, and the opening gates.

And to think I just sat down to write that I was taking tomorrow off for Rosh Hashanah. Oops.

So to all of you that are Jewish, or Jewishly affiliated, L’shanah tovah tikatevi v’taihatem. May you be sealed for a good year. May these days of wonder be peaceful and reflective and healing for each of you. To the rest of you, I’ll see you on Friday.


Picture: Apples (with no honey) by Cara, she of Peonies and Polaroids and Lillian and Leonard

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  • LPC

    We will say your words are the honey. OK?

  • Sometimes I miss the holidays.

  • Amanda

    Hello Meg ! I am sorry , was watching some images over the news yesterday and it was still a big shock, .Must have been awful to be there. If it is of any help, feel our support and a hug .

  • L’Shana Tovah! I got chills reading this post, thank you for sharing.

  • L’Shana Tovah, Meg! This was a beautiful post.

  • Anna Thaler

    Lovely, Meg. Thank you. L’shanah tovah umetukah!

  • I always get really weepy around this time of the year – this post was my kick-off.

    I’m not Jewishly affiliated, but I hope you’re able to enjoy your Rosh Hashanah. We’ll be thinking about you.

  • Enjoy your time off and day of reflection.

  • Big hugs, Meg. Make sure to number one wonderful thing you did this year as furthering this incredible space for people to get together and think bigger about all sorts of topics.

    • I don’t know if it’s your number one, but it’s certainly been of incredible importance to a lot of people, and that’s huge.

      • Lol, I totally didn’t mean that as #1, just meant to “number it among.” :) Thanks for the interpretation!

  • Love and peace to you. Thank you for being so eloquent and sensitive.

  • Jennifer

    A beautiful and timely post – We experienced a massive earthquake in my home town (nz) this week. Many people are feeling the raw horror, terror and compassion that you talk about. So for them, and for you, I wish for peace during your time of reflection and healing.

    • Rebecca

      Hey Jennifer – just wanted to let you know we’re thinking of you all down in Christchurch, especially as Hawke’s Bay (where all my family who aren’t in chch live) has it’s third not-too-small earthquake in less than a week. Some incredible stories of community and humanity are the best to come from this disaster. I hope you and your loved ones are safe and well.

      Well timed (as usual) Meg, if for completely different reasons…

  • Anna

    L’Shana Tova, Meg!